Thursday, January 21, 2010
one step forward....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BASIRUN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BASIRUN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
today definitely was a great day for me. to be frank, initially i wasnt looking forward to my birthday. yea yeah. you all can say im emoshit or what so ever. haha. but the table did turn around. let me just briefly say what happened or how did my celebration went like......
20th Jan; Pre Birthday Moment
2230hrs to 2300hrs: walk from Grand Hyatt Hotel to City Hall
2300hrs to 2345hrs: surprised C.G and send her home.
2345hrs to 2359hrs: walk aimlessly at west coast.
22nd Jan; Post Birthday Moment
0030hrs: switch on com and check mail. over 100 emails from facebook. check fb profile, and there goes the many wishes from all the diff people. HAPPY AND TOUCHED!!!!
0100hrs to now: typing non stop expressing how happy i am!
Done.
Note from Basirun/the 19th year old guy;
From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much to all you. Parents, sentosa colleagues, kecohrables, Grand Hyatt colleagues and to all my old friends. I am really happy for all the wishes that you guys had msg or post. You guys just make my 19th birthday more meaningful. never will i forget each and every one of you. again, thank you. i just cnt stop saying it.
LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!
ps: its time to be more wiser and step up a notch.
20th Jan; Pre Birthday Moment
2230hrs to 2300hrs: walk from Grand Hyatt Hotel to City Hall
2300hrs to 2345hrs: surprised C.G and send her home.
2345hrs to 2359hrs: walk aimlessly at west coast.
21st jan; BIRTHDAY MOMENT
0000hrs to dunno what time: replying and ans calls non stop and thanking people.
0015hrs: sri called and spilled the beans that they plan to meet me and bring me out when i lied
that i was heading home.
1218hrs: received a msg from C.G, which ive been waiting for. msg won't be forgotten.
0045hrs: met halim and amir at bugis and head to fetch sri.
0200hrs to 0400hrs: ATE SWENSEN'S AT CHANGI AIRPORT!!!!!
0500hrs: reached home, wash up and sleep.
0615hrs: irfan wake me up and wished me 'happy birthday'. best ting, he hug me while i was still
lying on my bed under my blanket. (he really made my morning meaningful)
1030hrs: got up and prepare for work. (i know, it sucks to work on birthday but not complaining)
1200hrs: at work doing same old thing. (still with a smile and no complain)
1430hrs: met a colleague(senior aunty staff), who hug me and wished me happy birthday!
2330hrs: heading home when sri called to meet up for supper. but she got rejected. too bad.
0000hrs to dunno what time: replying and ans calls non stop and thanking people.
0015hrs: sri called and spilled the beans that they plan to meet me and bring me out when i lied
that i was heading home.
1218hrs: received a msg from C.G, which ive been waiting for. msg won't be forgotten.
0045hrs: met halim and amir at bugis and head to fetch sri.
0200hrs to 0400hrs: ATE SWENSEN'S AT CHANGI AIRPORT!!!!!
0500hrs: reached home, wash up and sleep.
0615hrs: irfan wake me up and wished me 'happy birthday'. best ting, he hug me while i was still
lying on my bed under my blanket. (he really made my morning meaningful)
1030hrs: got up and prepare for work. (i know, it sucks to work on birthday but not complaining)
1200hrs: at work doing same old thing. (still with a smile and no complain)
1430hrs: met a colleague(senior aunty staff), who hug me and wished me happy birthday!
1515hrs: received instructions to head down for urgent matters. only to see those staff who were
off, came back with a cute little cake for me. i am till now really touched. i tot im just 'nobody' to them.
off, came back with a cute little cake for me. i am till now really touched. i tot im just 'nobody' to them.
1515hrs to dunno what time: msgs and call non stop coming in for wishes. (made my day even better)
2230hrs: met alif as he came down just to wish me happy birthday. how totful of him.2330hrs: heading home when sri called to meet up for supper. but she got rejected. too bad.
22nd Jan; Post Birthday Moment
0030hrs: switch on com and check mail. over 100 emails from facebook. check fb profile, and there goes the many wishes from all the diff people. HAPPY AND TOUCHED!!!!
0100hrs to now: typing non stop expressing how happy i am!
Done.
Note from Basirun/the 19th year old guy;
From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much to all you. Parents, sentosa colleagues, kecohrables, Grand Hyatt colleagues and to all my old friends. I am really happy for all the wishes that you guys had msg or post. You guys just make my 19th birthday more meaningful. never will i forget each and every one of you. again, thank you. i just cnt stop saying it.
LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!
ps: its time to be more wiser and step up a notch.
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 8:59 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
happy birthday irfan
ive got this annoying little brother of mine. who always fight with my annoying big brother. its like war when both of them are at hm. but bottom line, i love both of them very much. even though i hardly or never say it to them before. alright. my main focus for today is to wish Irfan, my little brother, HAPPY 9th BIRTHDAY!
listen to this sweet story"Basirun misses his brother and decided to call him at home to wish him happy birthday. It has been quite a while since he met Irfan due to work. Rrriiinnnnngggggg......and irfan picks up the phone and this was the conversation.
B: Irfan please???
I:Abang Basirun eh???
B: Haha. Yes and HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRFAN(SHOUTING)!!!
I:Hehe. What time you coming back???
B: I tink by the time i come back you sleeping already. and i can only see you tmrw.
I: huh?? tmrw? alah...so long. u always nt at home one.
B:why? miss me ah??
(a moment of silence & with a giggle)
I:hehe. I dunno?? Maybe........
I:Abang Basirun eh???
B: Haha. Yes and HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRFAN(SHOUTING)!!!
I:Hehe. What time you coming back???
B: I tink by the time i come back you sleeping already. and i can only see you tmrw.
I: huh?? tmrw? alah...so long. u always nt at home one.
B:why? miss me ah??
(a moment of silence & with a giggle)
I:hehe. I dunno?? Maybe........
and so the story goes.....bottom line is, he rarely would say that he miss someone. nt even to my parents. and for those who dnt know, he's nt even my blood brother but i feel so close to him. and yes, he can be annoying at times, but he shares most of my character. maybe coz he follow my mum n im the same character as her.
today was my off day. i forced myself not to go out coz i wanted to see him and initially wanted to bring him out. coz he kept asking for his present. but he had cca, which used to be the same as mine, track n field. and when he got home, he pretended like nth happen. but when i came up to him and hug him, he hug me titely and strt giggling again n say that maybe he did miss me.
enough said, this is how my little brother/Irfan look like.
Ps: put the tension away for a moment.
today was my off day. i forced myself not to go out coz i wanted to see him and initially wanted to bring him out. coz he kept asking for his present. but he had cca, which used to be the same as mine, track n field. and when he got home, he pretended like nth happen. but when i came up to him and hug him, he hug me titely and strt giggling again n say that maybe he did miss me.
enough said, this is how my little brother/Irfan look like.
Ps: put the tension away for a moment.
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 3:37 AM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
random again
i just couldnt sleep. n fyi, im just writing some random shit. as usual. i dont really know why i just cldnt make myself to sleep at times. if i wanna say that im having problems? im not too sure bout that. maybe i am but maybe im not also. bottom line is, im just confused. simple as that. i wanna be the basirun i used to be. n yeah, so to say, i realise that im less cheerful now.the question is, why?? why am i feeling all this stupid shit feelings? i dont like it when people come up to me and ask, "why bas? why u always gt problem??" You think i want to be in that situation? put it this way, i feel uneasy very easily. scnd problem, i tend too depend on someone too much. and i got to say this, SHIT MAN! WHY DID I HAVE TO DEPEND ON HER FOR THE PAST FIVE YEARS??? always back to square one. simply hard to move on.
best story of the year.......
"on a fine evening, basirun went to meet up with a lady named fyda.
apparently, they decided to meet up to catch up on things. and guess
what? through out the whole journey home, fyda just cnt stop talking
bout her prince charming. who on the other hand treats her like S.H.I.T.
to spice the whole mood of the 'fairytale' story, she was blabbering on how
much she love her prince charming and never wanting to let go no matter
HOW BAD HE TREATS HER...."
apparently, they decided to meet up to catch up on things. and guess
what? through out the whole journey home, fyda just cnt stop talking
bout her prince charming. who on the other hand treats her like S.H.I.T.
to spice the whole mood of the 'fairytale' story, she was blabbering on how
much she love her prince charming and never wanting to let go no matter
HOW BAD HE TREATS HER...."
back to reality, be in my shoes and having your love one to say that. how does it feel? best line of the year, 'i just love him so much'. for goodness sake, you're just with him for less than what? 5 mnths?? and you saying all that? bullshit girl. maybe thats what making me feel unhappy. alrite, so to say...im not trying to get back with you coz i know its almost impossible. but cnt you open your god damn eyes and see that he's just not for you??
true fact, you deserve someone way way better than both of us. i know i suck but he suck billion times more than me! its just shit when u describe your love to him. i hate to compare, but where did your brains fly to? ive been with you for five years and him? 5 mnths? simple, ask him what your attitude is when you're hungry? can he even ans that? you yourself know that he can't. you're just being stupid. love is blind and so is your eyes........
im just too disappointed in everything thats happening in my life. why am i going through all this now? why cant i just be happy as usual?? if so this is karma and getting back to me for all the mistakes ive done...i get the point and please stop punishing me. true fact, im starting to lose the precious ppl in my life. and seriously i just dunno who else i can talk to who really understnds me coz i tink that person no longer exist. im on my own now.
screw it. im done
ps: i need you to be my side(C.G)
true fact, you deserve someone way way better than both of us. i know i suck but he suck billion times more than me! its just shit when u describe your love to him. i hate to compare, but where did your brains fly to? ive been with you for five years and him? 5 mnths? simple, ask him what your attitude is when you're hungry? can he even ans that? you yourself know that he can't. you're just being stupid. love is blind and so is your eyes........
im just too disappointed in everything thats happening in my life. why am i going through all this now? why cant i just be happy as usual?? if so this is karma and getting back to me for all the mistakes ive done...i get the point and please stop punishing me. true fact, im starting to lose the precious ppl in my life. and seriously i just dunno who else i can talk to who really understnds me coz i tink that person no longer exist. im on my own now.
screw it. im done
ps: i need you to be my side(C.G)
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 9:07 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
stupid mistakes
ive to learn to take thing slow and not jump to conclusion. i just want you to know that i realise how busy you are. maybe i didnt manage to explain it to you what i really felt. i know that everyone needs attention. and whtever u're going thru, ive already been in that situation. and you know it. i know is sucks when people just assume that u gt no time for them when indeed you're trying to make time for them.
i admit that i tend to over react when certain situation happens. but im trying my best to just look on the positive side. thats why ive been keeping quiet and let things go with the flow. but then again, i alwasy say stupid stuff which misinterpret my whole point. and now...things just gt frm bad to worse. i dnt know hw else to put it you that i just want us to remain cool and just go with the flow.
true fact is, its almost impossible for me to get away from you coz im so used to you being around. i understand times are hard for you now, thats why i rarely text ya and let you cool down. i know whats going on in ur life now and i just wanna be there to help you out. i just wanna tell you that me too am not ready to commit in any relationship. but i just want us to remain as close as before......
again, i just wanna remind you that im not pushing you for anything and neither am i expecting anything from you also. i just want us to settle down on our own life and still be there for each other. like wht we use to remind each other, we're not someone who rush on tings as important as relationship. take your time and be happy with wht you do. lets not get stressed or pressured with this stupid issue. i just want both of us to know that no matter what happens, we still understnd each other situations and try to help wherever possible.
ps: we'll look on the positive side from now on............
i admit that i tend to over react when certain situation happens. but im trying my best to just look on the positive side. thats why ive been keeping quiet and let things go with the flow. but then again, i alwasy say stupid stuff which misinterpret my whole point. and now...things just gt frm bad to worse. i dnt know hw else to put it you that i just want us to remain cool and just go with the flow.
true fact is, its almost impossible for me to get away from you coz im so used to you being around. i understand times are hard for you now, thats why i rarely text ya and let you cool down. i know whats going on in ur life now and i just wanna be there to help you out. i just wanna tell you that me too am not ready to commit in any relationship. but i just want us to remain as close as before......
again, i just wanna remind you that im not pushing you for anything and neither am i expecting anything from you also. i just want us to settle down on our own life and still be there for each other. like wht we use to remind each other, we're not someone who rush on tings as important as relationship. take your time and be happy with wht you do. lets not get stressed or pressured with this stupid issue. i just want both of us to know that no matter what happens, we still understnd each other situations and try to help wherever possible.
ps: we'll look on the positive side from now on............
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 11:14 PM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
random feelings
i don't know how else to say it to you.
sometimes i think that u're just someone whom i can depend on.
yeah, its true that we both have not moved on as yet.....
but im starting to have this weird feeling between us.
i ask myself, why am i feeling this old feeling that ive long lost????
u make me feel happy and appreciated as before.
but one ting always worry me........
am i being too dependent on you and expecting too much?
ive had enough bad experience and i dnt want to go through it again.
i just didnt expect us to be in this 'close' situation.
you've been there for me every minute, making me feel as though im important again.
the time we spent, i really appreciate it.
frankly, thank god that we became close.
but we both know that its impossible for us now to move to the 'next' stage.
we are lucky that we both are in the same situation....
with that, it just make us believe that we are just no different from each other.
like i told you, i just can't put into words of wht my exact feeling is...
but one ting's for sure, it just get stronger each day.
and i know you feel it that way too.
thx for everything.
ps: taking time to move on is nt smt which is wrong.........
sometimes i think that u're just someone whom i can depend on.
yeah, its true that we both have not moved on as yet.....
but im starting to have this weird feeling between us.
i ask myself, why am i feeling this old feeling that ive long lost????
u make me feel happy and appreciated as before.
but one ting always worry me........
am i being too dependent on you and expecting too much?
ive had enough bad experience and i dnt want to go through it again.
i just didnt expect us to be in this 'close' situation.
you've been there for me every minute, making me feel as though im important again.
the time we spent, i really appreciate it.
frankly, thank god that we became close.
but we both know that its impossible for us now to move to the 'next' stage.
we are lucky that we both are in the same situation....
with that, it just make us believe that we are just no different from each other.
like i told you, i just can't put into words of wht my exact feeling is...
but one ting's for sure, it just get stronger each day.
and i know you feel it that way too.
thx for everything.
ps: taking time to move on is nt smt which is wrong.........
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 10:38 AM
Monday, December 7, 2009
what an excuse
its been a while since i talk to 'F', god knows whats going on her life now. i just hope that everything's fine for her. sometimes i wonder, has she really moved on? since she got someone else in her life now. apparently she denied but only god knows........
i used to believe that relationship is just a small part in everyone's life. but try having a relationship for close to five years. you will soon know the ans. i came across this friend of mine whom her relationship was EIGHT years long and they just got engaged on their eighth year. and guess what? they broke off soon after.......
and now, that friend of mine is already close with someone else. looking at their pace, i bet they will soon get together some time soon. i wonder, do girls tend to move on faster? when its usually said that girls are more emotional when it comes to moving on? another conclusion that could be made is, the current guy is just being used as a 'rebound'........
and now, that friend of mine is already close with someone else. looking at their pace, i bet they will soon get together some time soon. i wonder, do girls tend to move on faster? when its usually said that girls are more emotional when it comes to moving on? another conclusion that could be made is, the current guy is just being used as a 'rebound'........
it was a real co-incidence that i bumped to her at our 'used' to be favourate makan place, Thong Seng Bugis. I don't know why but somehow rather i had a strong feeling that i would bump into her somewear. true enough we did. I shall say that ive 3/4 moved on from thinking bout her but wht she did when we saw each other really dissapoints me.
its true that we are no longer together, but do you have to 'act and pretend' that you dont see me? worse still, you were just one table beside us. i dnt need you to say hi or smile at me but at least say hi to my friends or 'used' to be your very OWN CLOSE friends. what would they think of you?
to me, its total bullshit if you say that u didnt 'realise' we were there when we were the noisiest among the crowd. best still, we even said your name out loud. for someone who's not that close to you and realising that ure pretending not to see us is really bad i shall say. they even purposely waited for u when everyone left hoping that u would look at them. but nt even a second u spared for them. so we assume that ur 'bf' looks is ultimately handsome that you have to stare his face for the whole 45 minutes we were there.
im learning to move on and i just hope that you would change for the better and be happy with which ever 'ultimate handsome'/'good looking' guy you're with. be in my shoes and u know wht i felt when i saw you. you can lie to me or anyone else but not to yourself. self consciousness is the key word here.
sorry for writing a long note. i just wanted to express my dissapointment.
ps: not to worry girl, ive learned to forget and move on.........
Posted by Basirun Mansor at 6:45 AM
Saturday, December 5, 2009
time flies
i still remember the time when i first stepped into secondary sch. how at that point of times i hate BOYS! coz everywhere i go, its just boys, boys and more boys. practically bcoz i was in a boy's sch.
the picture above really gave good memories. that picture in sch uniform was taken back when i was in sec 3. not much diff to my face though. but faiz and hazlan really show big diff in terms of their facial look and size.
oh btw, the pretty lady among the not-so handsome guys is my malay teacher, cikgu hazliana. i still can remember she was fierce and somehow got scared of her. but now...its the other way round. she scared to go out with us coz we too NOISY! espcially with faiz and me around. haha. we met up recently and talk non-stop. too bad we it was late and we had to go home....
special note to faiz, which is very random:
You can be irritating at times, but truthfully, you're the only friend whom i can
depend on when im down. you're childish...thats a fact! but somehow, when im down
emotionally, ure always there to help me out and became matured somehow. there
were many time when shit can happen. real bad. but thx to you, you stop me from
taking all those stupid desicions. i just hope that our friendship will last till as long as
possible. no one elseunderstands me best besides you.
and dnt tink tis is some gay shit ok. tis is my only way to prove how much i treasure my friends.depend on when im down. you're childish...thats a fact! but somehow, when im down
emotionally, ure always there to help me out and became matured somehow. there
were many time when shit can happen. real bad. but thx to you, you stop me from
taking all those stupid desicions. i just hope that our friendship will last till as long as
possible. no one elseunderstands me best besides you.
ps: treasure people around you, won't know when u'll need them. :]
